Blog 3 - Something from the Past

  Months.. days.. time had passed me by so fast. But the memories of you on my mind are still fresh, fresh like a newly caught fish from the ocean. I can still recall how you sweetly whispered my name including the most sweetest words I've ever heard- "I love you", while smiling right next to me. I can still remember how we happily dreamed of the both of us growing old together, us living in a one roof, having a luxury life, I can still imagine how you smiled at me when we first ever met. Memories from the past keeps on visiting me, it never fails to make my eyes wet, it never fails to make me a bit sad.

  We started like a canvas, simple and plain. We painted it with joy and happiness every single day. Whenever we're facing problems, we're thankful. Because for us it means improvement. We faced them all with courage and hope, hoping to learn from each and everyone of it. Every single day we're leaning from each other, a knowledge that cant be thought in school. We learned from each other's experiences, we know each other's weakness and helped each other to overcome it, we noticed each other's flaws, but never use it to underestimate each other. We accepted the fact that no one's perfect, and used it to be imperfectly perfect.

  We mostly fight over simple things, like what path to take. We're having an argument on such little things, like who to get jealous with and not. We like to discuss about uncertain things, like how the day gone for us. We had fights that almost broke us into pieces. But in the end of the day, it's still each other whom we're thankful to have. Like a poem, we rhyme. Like a song, we have rhythm; Different perspectives tied up by same feelings.

  You're the one who thought me to believe on myself by also believing on what I can do. You told me that life is not about waiting for the storm so pass, but its about learning to dance under it and enjoy every drop of it, that life is a training ground, where in we have to be tough and prepared on every obstacles that we're about to face. You're one of the person I adore a lot. You have that strong personality that everyone wishes to have; the sense of humor that never fails anyone to set into laughter, your faith that can lead you to a better perspectives in life, your caring and loving side to your parents, siblings and even on your friends.


  We're once happy about everything, even the little ones. Once contented about everything we've got. We call ourselves blessed for having each other, but now we're regretting things and wishing we should've not meet each other. Why do it have to be so much painful? It even came to the point where in too much pain almost killed me, almost killed us, the pain did even changed us. You always told me to pretend that everything was just a dream, if it was, I surely wont woke up ever again. Heaven it was before, I never thought that heaven will send me to hell.

  Now, we're back on being strangers again.

  I still thank you for everything. I'm still thankful because I had a chance to meet you, for having a chance to have a lesson learned. I'm still praying that one day our paths will cross again. And when that day finally came, I wont let you go through your own life alone, ever again.